#22 teman

Salam and hey.

Today is Sunday.

Just a typical weekend but an extraordinary occasion happened today. I went to repair my broken blackberry phone into this one shop I stopped by.

To cut the story short, he repaired my phone and I asked him how much did it cost. To my surprise, he insisted me to pay according how much I could afford to.

This is 'extremely' RARE considering that never in my whole life a seller did such thing. I was absurbed for a moment, because the price agreed was significantly affordable compared to other enormous pricing by other sellers. 

In the end, I just asked him to pay him fairly according to his rates. Still, his pricing are reasonable aand 'ok'.

His name is Syed. I believe he is from middle-eastern side of the country, a Pakistani I assumed. I wish your business goes well and healthily.

I am truly blessed that there is still such people. I do appreciate it.

Footnote: for those who wonder why am I still use this old-fashioned, ice aged phone, for me just simply it has taken some space in my heart, I do still like to use it, even the technology changes. Also, I had some good memories with it. You know, sentimental stuff? Hehe

"You have to go whole-heartedly into anything

in order to achieve anything worth having."

- Frank Lloyd Wright

#21 Pagi Kelabu

Salam and hey.

It is regret for me to say that I am getting more and more 'wounded'. I dont know how to describe it, but the struggle is undeniably real.

I lost something precious and I want to get it back. 

#20 Jiwa Kelajuan

Salam and hey,

As I ranting my days onto this blog, I am currently reading, examining, focusing, harnessing, or whatever you want to call it, studying P5. It is tough, for I am procrastinating every single minute.

Seriously, I am pampering myself too much at this rate. It is hard to have a determined heart, that I am not attracted to any distraction. 

Late.

#21 kekalutan hati

"Ku mengerti perpisahan ini bukan kerana kau membenci,

Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri,

Tiada lagi bersama..

Seringkala aku terlihatkan mu,

Impian nan indah bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari,

Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali,

Tapi kasih,

Hati masih tak terima ditinggalkan sengsara

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu,

Perasaan hati masih rindu

Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku,

Tercari-cari bayanganmu

Tak sanggup ku kehilanganmu,

Kehilanganmu..."

Anuar Zain

#19 Keraguan Hati

Salam and hey.

It was just depressing that past few days hit me pretty hard. I wish to escape from the reality that make me scared, the future seemed uncertain with the current me being foolishly confused and blank. 

Life is tough, but I can change that depending on how I handle those problems. Problems will never get abated. Strong will and heart will get through in no time.

I never plan to walk at the life I am having through right now, I know I am not at my lowest, but to be frank, I am not in a good position neither. Maybe I need a partner to share all the joy and sorrow together to make life such more meaningful. I hope so.

The thing is that. life kept pushing me away and I really bad at handling such thing. I tend to make more mistakes, ignore it and make it worst. Sometimes, I just need a little break to focus my core. After all, Rome is not build in a day, isn't it?

One way is escaping life; Dota. This isn't good, I admit that it is addictive and suffocating. And it is just get worst if you handling it wrong. I must get out of this cycle as soon as possible.

Fuck it. Today I am so moody that I just play to want play Dota the whole day. Pray for me that I get recovered soon. :(

Signing off,

Knowledge is love and light and vision.

-Helen Keller

#18 Keberangkatan Hati Nun Jauh Sana

Salam and Hey,

I just feel lonely. And I just want to share it here.

Sometimes, I feel I am treated differently. I just want to be normal. Like everybody does. 

I watched a drama recently, and look upon the life of a person inside the drama resembles me, I wished someone knew what am I having through.

It is okay to be sad, but I need to be stronger than ever. Pray for me.

#17 Tethering Love

Salam and hey.

Today marks the 21st of August. Time surely flies with memories flooding all over the place.

My write up is not as usual where I always delaying and end up leaving it behind. I have this identity crisis where I am standing without a feet, or hanging without a rope. Do you get what I am trying to say? Nevertheless, I somehow able to keep going and survive the day.

I am already at quarter century of age, and surprisingly I am not expecting things that have happened right now. It still feels like a dream, really.

 I have to be strong, not just for myself, but for everyone around me, so that I could believe miracle and faith are actually real. Same goes to them. I will just need to keep spreading positive vibes and enjoy every little things that made my day.

This includes giving smiles to people, friends and strangers. Help the needy. Create positive vibes around people. Cheer them up. Try to be as positive as you can be. And the list goes on.

I can say that I am quite grateful, because I know Allah is always with me. Even though there are times I always forgetting, He is always giving me chances to change the way I should be. Alhamdulillah, I am trying to be a better person.

I just need to do an extra hard-work in my studies so that I will not get left behind. This is how I should be. Amin.

To the person that I have always cared, I do still care about you. I know I hardly be on your mind, but let's just say that I always pray for the best for you, like I always do. Just take care of yourself. I hope you are able to chase the stairs of success, so that I could happily see you from far away. 

Signing off,

Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible.Francis of Assisi