Monday, 4 December 2017
Monday, 27 November 2017
Pernah tak kau rasa kusut bila sesuatu berlaku dan kau tak boleh nak buat apa apa? Lebih khusus, kau rindu seseorang tapi kau tak mampu untuk bercakap dengan dia kerana kau dah rosakkan segalanya.
Thats how I felt everytime. Every. Single. Time.
I miss my important people. I miss you. Everything seemed to me like a ghost. Empty. You felt the presence yet you could not do anything.
Sunday, 26 November 2017
To this moment, I used to watch all my pictures with her right beside me. And it made me smile. Like a fool, knowing that she was there.
I like the way she smiled, and it turned me into something that I'm not.
But now it seemed all that were now in the past. To feel happy is only temporary. Who am I to question when everything happened was just a borrowing from Him?
Even so, Im grateful, even if it is just for a little moment. Because I haven't felt this feeling for a long time. At least, I had the chance again, well, to love someone.
Im just hoping that, at the end of the side over there, I'm seeing myself as the one I'm proud of myself, telling the 'me' now to keep holding on, heads up, and cheer a little more and enjoying life as much as I can.
It is not the end product I'm looking at, it is the process that I'm concentrating at. Many people were wrong about this.
My dear self, I love you, just so you know.
Thursday, 9 November 2017
When I say strong, it means songs like Saosin, Matchbook Romance, and pretty much older The Used songs.
Saturday, 28 October 2017
Hari demi hari
Di perkarangan jauhari
Sesuatu yang tak pasti
Di kemudian hari
Hatiku bagai dikunci
Tertutup dengan rapi
Hingga ku takuti
Oleh diriku sendiri
Akhirnya ku lalui
Yang tak mungkin aku tepati
Yang mungkin dapat aku janji
Akan diriku kini
Biarlah aku jalani
Perjalanan yang tiada henti
Agar harapan yang penuh di hati
Akan terus mekar dan berapi
Bersama sama dengan orang yang ku cintai.
Sunday, 17 September 2017
Salam and hey
Today im gonna talk about fear. Everyobe has it, and not everyone has proper channel or way to vent it all out or counter those phobias.
Well i have one, at least im aware the most
My phobia, or my worries are basically
Getting too attached to someone,
I am gettting scared of losing people i care about.
This is why I always draws a line
In hoping that i will not cross it
In fear of i will not anticipated a huge disappointment
Because my heart gets shattered everytime
When a person walks away from my life
That is why i drew the line
To not get my hopes high
Just to let die in the middle of the road
Ive seen much, Ive heard enough
Im better off alone.
Ive not find any way yet to overcome this fear
That has been eating my souls for so many years now
I always believe that someone
Will let me out from this vicious cycle
Because I believe in faith and hopes.
What a dreamer, am I?
Salam and hey,
This post is dedicated to all people whom I care significantly, or insignificantly in my life.
If I do love you, I really do, and I mean it evey word I say.
But if you keep igoring me, somehow every people on earth will eventually become tired, including me.
I hate to say this, but you are just wasting both of our time.
I tried so hard to get to you and you acted as if I was nothing to you.
For that, I have neither strength or interest to keep this relationship going.
I just wish someone to love and like me the way I like and love her, too.
Love works both ways, not just one journey.
When time is gone, you will never able to see me again.